That feeling, no it's more than that and less, that sense of being when you sit on the edge, darkness, cliffs, sanity, no matter how funny, intelligent, likeable, charming, responsible, sober you are nothing fills you but a desire to see nothing more and nothing less than what you have already seen and the flood of emotion, that drought of love in a perfect storm makes you take a step into, off of, past where you hope to feel, no it's more than that, and less, you hope to be different.